As I sit here at the computer, I am unsure as to what road to go down in this post. My thoughts lately, have been scattered and it is hard for me to FOCUS. I don't know if it is all the hot, humid weather that we've been having or what. I have been going through a "desert." Nothing desperate, but a desert nonetheless.
I am "thirsty" for some spiritual refreshment - maybe a ladies conference or weekend away to get some "living water" for my soul! I really miss not having attended a conference that I usually do in the spring. It is only a two-day conference, but several workshops and classes are packed into these two days. I gain so much insight and knowledge from attending and it is wonderful to fellowship with other ladies who, no doubt, are having the same trouble as I am.
A few ladies at church are meeting once a month for a time of fellowship which is nice, but I feel I need some depth - if you know what I mean. I don't want it to be just a time of socializing, which most people will flock to. The in-depth studies and fellowship usually attracts fewer participants, but the rewards are much greater. Doesn't everyone need a time of refreshment?
By now you must be hearing my "Woe is me" plea and I really don't want to sound like I am having a "pity party." I have tried to lift my spirits by listening to some great music, some wonderful radio programs, and just by picking up the dozens of books on the bookshelf. I can't seem to find a place to start. I haven't been able to "get into" the Mary and Martha study on Rachel's blog even though I read the book, "Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World" - a great book that I loved and found very beneficial. I'm sure I would have something to contribute to the discussion if I had been able to focus.
Do any of you ever find yourself having these feelings? I know God is right here beside me, but I can't seem to feel Him right now. Faith, I guess is better than feeling. I KNOW He will never leave nor forsake me. I long for the time when I can "feel" Him again! Tears are coming now, they have been absent for a while. Hopefully, this is the beginning of my journey out of the desert.
Please remember me in your prayers and stop by occasionally to say Hi!
Be Encouraged! (I am taking my own advice)